How I See You – Accepting
I struggle to believe that Jesus is accepting, loving, and kind. I know that he is, but I don’t believe that he is. When I don’t do things perfectly, he must be disappointed. When I don’t pray enough, he must respond by withdrawing from me. When I screw up, he’s not going to help.
It dawned on me one day that I see Jesus the same way I see the world, and that has a lot more to do with my story than it does with Him. I want to see him more clearly, but it’s like I’m looking through a fogged glass. He’s distorted. As I get healthier, I see him more clearly, but it’ll never be enough.
But that’s not how He sees me. He sees clearly and he’s not disappointed, withdrawn, or angry.
This painting started as a portrait, fully executed and detailed before I covered it up.